You see, the fear of losing identity is such even if you try to hold on, you can’t hold on. You understand? If it can stay, I have no problem. Have it. I don’t want to take it away but it won’t stay even if you try to hold on, after sometime maybe at the time of death or.. One more thing, when I say death, I don’t even mean the final death. Even if your money is lost, you will lose your identity. Even the money is lost, if the money is taken away from you, you will lose the identity of that millionaire. If something in your relationships are lost, if some of your near and dear ones dies, a part of your being will die. That is why, whenever something is taken away from you, you feel such, so much of suffering.

You see, you may not even live with your father or mother. They may be living in some other country but the moment you hear the news they have died, or they are no more, you feel such a emptiness in you. Physically you are not missing them because already they are living somewhere but the moment you hear they are no more, you feel something is missing in you because your identity is taken away. Be very clear. Whenever something is lost, your identity will be lost because your identity is build on these pillars.

Relax from the fear of losing the identity. You will see, you will have the identity which will never be lost, which will never be lost.

(Swamiji reads a letter): I have tingling and numbness on my left side of the body. Is this expected and normal?

It will become alright because you are sitting for a long time, and just be unclutched from this also. But usually when you start meditating, if you have suppressed your left side…is it question from male? Question from whom? Ok.

It means you have suppressed your feminine energy for a long time. Whenever you enter into meditation, if you have suppressed the left side, you will feel the tingling and numbness means the left side is now getting rejuvenated. All male, they suppress the feminine or the mother’s side of their being and same way, female, they suppress the masculine side, masculine energy. So naturally you will have little balancing when you start meditating. Good.

(Swamiji reads a letter): My job requires competition. When I unclutch, I feel numb. If I unclutch at work, I will not compete and I can lose my job. What should I do?

Be very clear. If you are unclutched, you will do much more than what is required. Who is that person? I assure, just be unclutched. You will not lose the job. I have seen people becoming so creative, so energetic. Ask the people who have done Nithyanandam program, means people who have done this same program one month ago. Ask them. Ask them to share what is happening with them in this one month and how they feel. What is their mind set up and all those things. The other day, one person from Salem came and told Me, “Swamiji, I am doing three times more business with lesser time. I have become so clear about myself, about my life, and my attitude and everything. It is totally different.”

I tell you, surely you will never lose your job. You will never lose the spirit of creating. You may not hurt others, you may not pull others legs. You may stop backbiting. You may stop politics but you will not stop the creation. You will be a important productive member. I am creating a new title ‘Enlightened Managers’. Enlightened managers. I am trying to work on a one more program for corporate sector – giving this truth.

You see, in the first day, second day, when you hear this truth immediately, so much of irritation you had inside with competition, you tend to relax from that. The pendulum feels like going the other side. Because it was this side, the moment you leave, you feel the pendulum is going to the other side. It won’t go to the other side. It will stand straight and it will balance itself. Don’t worry. It is just your fear that pendulum is going other side. It is nothing.

SOURCE: NITHYANANDAPEDIA
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