Let me express a key word – Mahavakya, the word which you need to completely understand. May be modern day ‘Mahavakya’. The word is “Be Unclutched”. Now let us try to analyze and internalize this one truth, one mahavakya. We have beautiful different Mahavakyas in Vedic tradition – Aham Brahmasmi, Tatvamasi, Pragnam Brahmam, Sarva Kalvidam Brahmam. These are all different Mahavakyas. Be Unclutched – What do I mean by the word – being Unclutched. Let me try to explain it with a simple diagram, how, continuously our mind is working and how we are clutching, connecting and creating a life or suffering and how we are creating the ignorance or depression.
Thoughts are happening in your system the way it is shown in the above diagram. Each block represents a thought. Different shape, different size, different length, different width, different kinds of thoughts. Sometimes, a thought (J) is about some joyful experience which you had, sometime about some suffering (S) which you had, sometime you have some guilt thoughts (G), again sometime some joyful (J) memories, again some painful memories (P) and some depression memories (D)….different, different thoughts. If you just do a simple experiment, just for 5 min, if you write whatever goes inside you without editing as it is and read that page again, suddenly you will realize that you are nothing but a bunch of unconnected, independent, illogical, unclutched thoughts. Please understand the thinking flow which is happening inside you is not logically connected. For example, if you see a dog in the street, suddenly you will remember the dogs which you have seen when you were a child or the dogs about which you used to be afraid. Then you will remember your childhood days, then you will remember the teacher under whom you studied. Then you will remember the place where teacher stayed. The link will go on. But there is no logical connection between the dog which you have seen in the street and the teacher with whom you studied when you were young. Of course, both of them barked at you. There is no logical connection. Suddenly from where the mind moves to where, there is no logical connection.
In the west they have a software called dragon software, whatever you speak it will transcribe. I also use sometimes for writing books. If your mind is connected to a dragon software how it will transcribe, transcribe the same way whatever goes on inside. With the same kind of grammatical errors or with the same accent or with same words or same pronunciation, even if it doesn’t make any sense just pen down. Suddenly you will see you are nothing but bunch of independent, illogical, unconnected and unclutched thoughts. You do not know why a particular thought is raising after a particular thought, there is no logical reason, just something arises and then next something else is arising, next something else is arising, thoughts are flowing, words are flowing.
When you are suddenly aware of your body and your existence, at those moments any thought which flows in front of you becomes your life, you start giving attention to it either to fulfill or to escape. Its like a projector light is there, any slide which is kept in front of the projector light is seen as a reality in the screen. One problem is in your inner space the projector light is not continuously ON, it just comes and goes, comes and goes. Whenever you are not aware of your existence, many time, even though your eyes are open, even though your body is moving, you will not be aware of your existence. You can see in your life, you will get into your car at your house, drive for 30 mins, only after you reached the office, park the car and come out of the car suddenly you will realize – Oh! I finished my driving, i reached my office. You have taken 200 decisions in that 30 mins, right, left, giving brake, stopping for signal, but you are not aware of your existence. That is why you don’t remember all these decisions you took and all these things happened in you. Those few moments the projector light was OFF. Any slide which was moving in front of it is not part of your life.
Again for no reason the light is ON, when you are aware that you exist, whatever thought moves in front of you, they become your part, they become your life. Understand, its a very subtle truth. Your life is totality of all the thoughts moving in front of you but unfortunately many time, many major decisions, thoughts, the life changing incidents happen when you are not aware. Its like the film which moves when the projector light was OFF, that also is part of your life. But, unfortunately you are not aware of the scenes, decisions, thoughts which went on, which contribute to your life, which are also part of your life, just because the light is OFF. Every single moment which passes in your life without you being aware of this moment, of your presence, is suffering. Either directly or indirectly it will add to suffering. Either directly you will invite or indirectly you will create a situation for the suffering. When you turn your car indicator it blinks, the same way your consciousness also blinks, you do not know when it is ON or OFF. If you just see the thought flow in front of you suddenly you will realize – Oh god, all these things are going on in me, then what is going on inside me, I myself do not know where I am heading, I myself do not know what is happening in me. Here, understand the above diagram, we will see more deeper and deeper truths.
First, I want all of you to understand, you are not aware of all the decisions, all the thoughts moving inside you, inspiring you to live the way in which you are living, inspiring you to think the way you are thinking, inspiring you to be the way you are. You are not aware but constantly we believe we are aware. This is the first illusion. Whenever I say this people get frightened, Oh god! already I have enough suffering now He is adding one more suffering, one more fear that I do not know where I am heading. Understand, I am not adding suffering, I am just helping you to experience, open up to the reality. One more thing opening up to the reality even though it feels like suffering in the initial level it will always lead you to the joy and bliss because ‘Sat’ which means ‘The Truth’ by its very nature is ‘Chit’ means ‘Power/Consciousness’ and ‘Ananda’ means ‘Bliss’. By its very nature, ‘Sat’ leads to ‘Chit’ and ‘Chit’ leads to ‘Ananda’. Even though in the initial level it feels like little more responsibility, little more load.
Now itself many of your minds would have decided “No, no, no, what He says may be right that I am not aware, but I can’t become aware of everything happening in front of me. Oh, living in the present moment, being aware of whatever is going on, that and all is not for me. I tried many times Swamiji, you don’t know how many techniques I tried.” Understand, we are not that dumb as we think. We have huge possibility, huge potentiality. May be the right initiation has not happened. The right click has not happened. So, don’t close the file. No, no, no, I tried many times, you don’t know how many gurus I went to, how many techniques I have tried. There are many people like that. I call them professional seekers. Their profession is seeking. Anywhere, any board, any swami, any guru, any saint, any mahatma, anybody they will be there. Not for learning, just for judging. What is he teaching let me see. People come to me and ask me “I know everything Swamiji, just give me in essence what extra you can add to me“. I tell them “Sorry, I don’t know anything extra to add you, I can only remove something from you. What you think as knowledge I can remove that so that the truth can happen.” Please do not come to the decision “No, no, He is again I think going to teach living in the present moment. I know I tried many times, it doesn’t work out, if it works out in sometime it goes away“. No, I am not going to teach you living in the present moment. Because you are living, why should I teach. Even if you are suffering about past, you are suffering in the present. Even if you are worrying about your future, you are worrying in the present. So, you are in the present. I am not going to teach you to be in the present. All I am doing is trying to take away some ideas which you think as your mind.
The first truth is you are not aware of all the things which is happening in front of you. You do not remember your biography as it happened. You remember only as you want it. When people ask me many time I tell them, if your TPS (thought per second) comes down, you will have clarity about your past and future. Then they tell me “About past already I have clarity, why should I have clarity about my past by bringing my TPS down. Now itself I know my past“. No, please understand you don’t know your past, you don’t remember, recollect the past as it happened. You recollect only as you want it, not as it happened. Just a simple example, if you see the above diagram, your life was filled with different kinds of incidents – joy, suffering, guilt, pain, depression… different, different quality of incidents. You do not look at the life as it is. Usually what you do…what we do. I use the word ‘WE’ because sometime people think the word ‘You’ means too condescending. Thats the reason I used ‘We’. The problem is in the public place you can neither use ‘We’ nor use ‘You’. If I say ‘You’, somebody feels condescending. If I use the word ‘We’, then they may say if you also have the same problem how can you teach me, that is the big problem. Anyhow I don’t have a better word, so I use the word ‘We’. What usually we do is some joy, some suffering, some guilt….this is our life, different thoughts, different experiences. Usually you collect only all the suffering related incidents and create a SHAFT, create a connecting idea and think your life is nothing but suffering as shown below.
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